November 18, 2013


I should be sleeping right now, as I have to be up in a few hours. I have a license to renew and have to go for a drug test for new work. Then a day followed of some home repair and cleaning. But like always, my legs are restless and there is a lot on my mind.

As I turned 40 a few hours ago, I began thinking. Age has always been a number for me, nothing more. But I've always used it age as a marker. A marker on how far ones gotten in their lives with the plans they laid out before them.

A lot of people don't make plans for themselves other than graduating high school and either going to the military or college. A few go to the extent of making plans for marriage and their homes, but far and few between. Those things normally just happen. And then there are the handful, that make plans for their kids to go to college, though in this day and age, those plans are sometimes lost in transition of trying to survive.

As kids, we dream big. Places we want to go, things we want to do. People we want to be. I will be the first to admit, I may not have had both parents in my life at all times, nor been well off with money, but there was always a roof over our heads and food on the table. Many times it was a struggle beyond belief.

And growing up, I had a lot of opportunities to do some of the things that I wanted to do. Go places I wanted to go. But those things barely put a notch in the bucket list. The ability to be in two movies, the ability to meet an idol and even the ability to live in a city that I'd always wanted to since I was knee high. I even took a very short period of time out and did a little travel. It wasn't anything I'd like it to have been, but I did it.

So where is all of this going? Well, at the age of 40, I would have thought I would have done a little bit more. Traveled to the places I really wanted to go to like England, Ireland, Italy and Egypt. Learn to hang glide and go sky diving. Learn to surf, though I tried body boarding this summer and my body and the ocean are not meant for one another.

I had so many ideas and thoughts growing up, to be a rocker star, to be in the movies, to be the next Salvador Dali, however, something always got in the way and things got put on the back burner. And as I sit here reading this, I realized, I haven't accomplished nearly a 1/3 of what I wanted to do.

Life is always about work. And those few times you do get to do something, no matter how small, you try and make the best of it. But there has to be a time when enough is enough and you get to do something that you want to do and not what others want you to do.

I wanted to do something this year for my birthday to make it memorable. To mark that age marker down as something accomplished. But since loosing my job, money is almost run out. And once I do get money, bills need to be caught up and car repairs need to be done.

In the end, I guess this will be a milestone that is missed.


November 4, 2013

Family Tree

So in the sleepless nights of my exsistance lately, I've started working on my family tree. I'm more in for it, for the pedigree than anything. But others in the family, not sure. They just want to know.
So I have a 14 day free trial for, so I decided why not. This would be the second time I've tried using their services. The last time was shortly after they came out on the internet. And man was hat more trouble than I wanted to put in.

All these years later, it's a lot easier for the most part, as so many people have started family tree's. It's easy to look up a lot of stuff and compare it to what you have. And you would be amazed at how many people out there have relatives of your's in their tree's. Mainly because trees branch out so much, it would take years and years to try and complete one.

Right now, I've been able to, in three days, thanks to others and Google search, go back to a distant relative John Munroe from Cornwall England. As well as the White family (still working on them) that was apparently loyalist to the English throne at the time of the Revolution. They moved to Canada after the War and weren't taken to kindly.

For the most part, starting with my grandmother, working up was somewhat easy. Cross checking here and there. Looking for records. Problem with the site is, you need to have a subscription, in order to gain access to anything out of this country. So, for the most part, the family is split in two, once they arrived here. Some moved from the states to New Brunswick Canada then back. Some stayed in the states.

So in order to get any documents from Canada, I either have to find alternative methods, or wait til I get back to work and some money saved to pay for the subscription.

Some of the names though are cool. Corlinda Bailey, Charity Sharp, Jeremiah Nightingale, Abigail Lippincott and Lavinia Chase.One thing I've noticed though, back then, 1600 to early 1900's, they believed in very large families. Talking anywhere from 8-14 children.

Had to piece this together from multiple screen shots. As it's getting huge.Though there is a lot more filled in below my grandmother, this all starts with her.  But I am having a little fun doing this. And it's taking my mind off the unemployment thing temporarily.


$63 Million Dollar Failure

Just like the Federal health site, even local health govt sites are failing. They spent $63 million on the new unemployment website for Florida, and so far it's been nothing but issues for people.

No word from the governors office, no one. Finally, Senator Nelson stepped up, but I really doubt it will get anything done soon. As politics is a waiting game. We've seen it first hand with the govt. shutdown.

I had to file and claim my first set of weeks the day before the system was converted. And just like the apparent 1 million plus other residents, I got screwed over. It's been almost 2 months, and still nothing. They finally asked me today, to fax over my termination papers.

Apparently though, I was flagged incorrectly. As the system disqualified my first two weeks claims. And I still cannot get an answer.

Everyday I look for jobs. It's gotten to the point,t hat all the job boards and recruiters are posting the same jobs as before. Ones I've filled out for. Everyday, I get emails for jobs I've never trained in or am even close to being basically qualified for. No hits on anything I am qualified for.

I've been keeping track of everything, and looking at it is making me more depressed than I already am. 

So as it stands right now, it's a lot like this actually! 



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